What up world my name is jack stevens (my real name is jacob but all my friends call me jack)!!! I am eleven years old. My birth day is today!!! And thats how i got this notebook (it's not a diary, because diarys are for girls)
I like playing xbox (halo borderlands and minecraft are my favorite games) and skateboarding (but i'm not very good) and going on playdates with my best friends. My best friends are daniel, alex, ben and lucas. We have playdates all the time. I also love my parents a loooooooot! We go hiking together on the weekends and then go to that japanese restaurant by the ocean for lunch. I cant ask for a better mom and dad!
Today I had my eleventh birthday party! It was at the pool by my house. Daniel, Alex, ben, and lucas all came and a couple of other kids from school as well. It was really fun. Also when I was there I saw Sophie grey from school with her parents and sister. Shes in my class. Shes annoying. So when I walked past her I didnt say hi. And she didnt say hi either.
Mom and dad got me some really cool gifts! I got GTA V and Assassins creed IV black flag even though they are rated M and I thought they wouldnt let me play them. But I'm really happy they did! I'm going to play them alot with my friends. And my friends got me very cool presents too. Like for example Ben gave me a new skateboard which is really sick.
Middle school starts in four days and im really excited. I cant wait to show up to all my new classes and see my new friends and teachers and be like "hey whats up world i'm Jack stevens." The world is awesome
jack stevens out
Whats up world its Jack stevens checking in with you guys again!
Middle school is going… okay. I feel like a big kid now that I don't have to be around those stupid kindergarteners and first graders. But my teachers are kind of mean to be honest. Yesterday Mrs henderson (my english teacher) got mad at me because I was making origami in class. I dont know why mrs henderson doesnt like them. I always made origami in Mr martinez's class last year in 5th grade, and I always showed them to him and he loved them. He would put them on his desk and keep them for the entire year. But Mrs henderson just threw them out.
Also I have something kind of weird that I want to talk about. Last weekend I was sleeping over at Alexs house with Daniel Ben and Lucas and it was 10 or something like that. And his parents were sleeping and we were sitting on his bed looking at his lap top. He was like "jack you wanna see something cool" and I said yes. And then he went on some weird website… and there were pictures of girls!!! They were almost naked!!! Alex kept scrolling through some photos until he got to a video… and he played it and it showed a man putting his hot dog (thats what I call the you know what) into a woman!!!!!!! Alex and the others started laughing and screaming and I didn't know what to do so I just laughed with them. I felt really weird when I saw that… I didn't know you could do that with a girl…
Maybe I will try it with some one at school.
Jack stevens out
What up world, its Jack Stevens!
My friends are being kind of weird recently. Daniel, Alex, Ben, and Lucas have been hanging out with some of the cool kids like Preston Davis, Cole Matthews, and Eric Polanco. They are really good at skateboarding, way better than me. I have also noticed that Preston and Cole and Eric hang around with the girls at school, including Hannah Hayes, Sophie Gray, and their friends. They are always talking in class and sometimes I see the girls give the boys hugs. And the boys always look really happy when they do.
Sometimes when I'm hanging out with Daniel, Alex, Ben, and Lucas they talk about how they go over to their houses or go skateboarding in front of me. But they never invite me. Maybe they don't want me there because they think I'm embarrassing.
Also theres something up with my parents.
They have been arguing a lot recently. Sometimes when we are sitting around one of them will just say something and then they both start yelling. Sometimes Dad gets really angry and he starts throwing things on the ground. I've never seen him before like this and it's really scary. I never knew he could get so angry. Even when I was hit by a car when I was five. It makes me wonder what did Mom do to make him so angry?
About two weeks ago when I went downstairs at 11 PM to get some water I saw Dad sleeping on the sofa. When I asked him why wasn't he sleeping with Mom he said "Son sometimes people who love each other grow apart. And they don't love each other anymore. And that's normal." Today in the morning I asked Mom what was going on with her and Dad, and she just said "honey everything's fine. Don't worry about it."
But I know things aren't normal. I know Mom is lying to me. But I don't know why she's like this.
I used to think Mom and Dad were always going to love each other. Things are really scaring me right now.
Jack Stevens out…
Damn, it's weird to be writing in this thing again.
I found this when I was packing today. Reading through some of the cringy shit I've written when I was a kid was pretty painful, not gonna lie. When I got this book I had just finished elementary school… and now I'm about to start high school. Damn. Time flies fast. Middle school was really long and really gay, so I'm happy to be out of there.
Why am I packing you ask?
Because my parents got a fucking divorce.
I saw this coming for a long time, to be honest. At dinners they don't talk anymore. When they do, they argue with each other for the smallest things, like which road to take when driving and stuff like that. I think they haven't loved each other for a long time. Dad moved to an apartment across town a couple weeks ago. The custody hearing is next week.
As for my social life… Since elementary school the old crew has drifted apart. Now instead of me, Daniel, Alex, Ben, and Lucas, it's usually just me and Ben. We live practically next to each other, so I guess that's why he's the only one who wants to hang out with me. I'm fine with that. When we used to hang out they would always talk about how they're going to go to Preston Davis's house, or go skateboarding with Eric Polanco. And they never invited me once. I would just sit back and stay quiet when they talked about things like that. Eventually I got fed up and just stopped hanging out with them anymore.
So yeah, a lot of shit's been going on in my life. Jack Stevens out, I guess. Whatever.
So I don't know what the fuck I'm supposed to do.
First day of school two months back, guess who sits next to me in Spanish class?
Sophie Grey. Yeah, that Sophie Grey. The one I said was annoying in this very fucking diary (yes, I'm calling it a diary now. I'm being true to myself now.) I haven't had any classes with her since elementary school, and I haven't seen her around middle school a lot. I think she forgot I existed.
Let me tell you, the female body can change a lot in four years. Let me tell you, she's pretty damn stacked compared to other girls at school. And she's not lacking in the derrière department, either.
We've been really hitting things off recently. Mr. Gonzalez, our Spanish teacher, made us partners at the beginning of the year, so that means we do all the in-class activities together and shit. One of us says a word in English and the other repeats it in Spanish, that kind of stupid shit. After we do our work we just talk about shit. About school and classes, mostly. What homework is due, which teachers suck ass, the works.
The thing is, she's dating Cole Davis.
Yeah. Kind of sucks, but whatever. I'm thinking I might be the rebound guy in a couple months or so. I mean, these kind of things don't last very long, right? I mean, we're fucking fourteen years old. It's not like we're supposed to find our soulmates or shit like that. Smash and dash, that's the name of the game.
Another thing: I haven't really thought of what I want to do after high school until now, but now I've actually got a pretty good idea.
I want to be a pro-bono lawyer. I've seen them on TV, winning big court cases and helping people who need it. The
When I brought up this idea to my parents, however, they weren't as enthusiastic.
She had this ugly frown on her face, like she had just drank a carton of lemon juice. Sat me down. Told me she loved me, she would support me no matter what, but what I was saying was just plain unreasonable. "It's a pipe dream," she said. Instead, why not join one of those big law firms?
I can't say I'm surprised. Mom has always been the domineering type. But I can't say I'm not disappointed either.
I guess she's right, though.
—Jack Stevens
Things have… been rough.
Ever since last year my grades have been steadily slipping. I don't know why. I mean, I do know why, it's just I don't know why it's happening. I don't have the energy to do homework or study anymore. Showing up at that fucking place every day is so fucking depressing. Every morning I wake up and lie in bed for half an hour and get to school late, and every afternoon right after school I go straight to bed.
Mom hasn't been taking this well. She doesn't get mad, though, like you would expect her to after seeing a C or D or even an F on my test paper. This terrible look creeps across her face and she avoids eye contact with me and she gets all quiet. When she does speak her voice is all soft and stilted, like she has something in her mouth.
I wish she would just yell at me instead.
Ben's my only friend. I never was a social butterfly before, but now it's official. Me and him, we don't even hang out that often. When we do, we usually just go to the mall and grab something to eat. I haven't told him about the shit that's going on with me. I don't think I ever will. But it's still nice to know someone's got your back, no matter how shitty things are going.
Jesus Christ. What a fucking day.
So I was at Dad's place, playing Xbox with Ben, and I hear him approaching me from behind. He fucking ripped off my headset and dangled my fucking math test from last Friday in front of my face. I stopped telling my parents my test grades long ago. I guess he must have been looking through my backpack.
He asked me, real softly and with this jarringly calm expression on his face, what happened. I said I don't know. And that's when he fucking lost it. Even when he was
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