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I know I made my mistakes and I know i have let you down.
I know I have betrayed the people giving me a chance to do the right things.
I have killed people that I shouldn't have killed. I released things to this world that shouldn't even exist.
I have given myself to chaos and it's servants, and at last I have become the things I spent years hunting containing and making sure they don't become a danger to the world.
But in the end I have become this danger myself.

And this one last time: I'm sorry that I let you down.

This is a letter written by former Security Director and coordinator of class-D personnel of site-54 Walter Maier.
He is no longer among us.
He committed suicide on the 23rd of October.
He left behind a trauma in the Foundation and a wife and a son.
This is his story; he recorded all of this the nights before his suicide. Probably assuming that the foundation would be at the crime scene after hearing his name.

Hello, foundation I guess, I want one last thing before i continue this log please if there was a letter on the roof i jumped of, give it to my son, please.
So now to me, I'm probably no good of a memory for you but i want you to know I'm sorry, but i hope you see my past with another perspective after these logs.
My name is Walter Maier i was born in Linz Austria and here is where my life started to make me who i have become. I grew up with only one parent and spent my teenage years alongside the wrong people and that started it all, I stole, i killed i, dealed drugs and broke rules of the authorities. Till one day with,23 i was caught stealing from a old house near Leipzig where i moved to just a few months before.
But i managed escaping the police station again and again and again. I was soon known as the escapist from the mountain estate. And that brought the foundation to the plan.
I was kinda done with my life as a criminal and the foundation offered me a job as security assistant and containment improver. For sure I accepted i just needed to. This made my life, and i climbed the ranks fast.
End of log one.

So i had it all i was the security director of my site and director of class-D coordination. And still my old life didn't let me go. I was 34 I was married and had a son on the way. And this night i threw it all away. I was on a night out but this would change my life for ever, and this is how it happened. i had contacted someone in the chaos insurgency and this night I joined them.
The next night there should be a quiet fast and unrecognised raid on the site.
But karma is a bitch.
It all went wrong the hacking didn't work the cameras were on. There was a firelight. I was filmed on camera. We got out of there relatively safe. Bruised and battered but safe we escaped.
I went to my house and told everything to my wife. She listened patient and then she started crying. And i left, I just left. I never met my son. Multiple Scp's escaped that night and I was sitting there in the Insurgency truck that was driving towards Poland.
I regret this night, my son only knows the story of the traitor i was and my wife was fired from her job in the foundation. I don't know what i thought I thought what the foundation does is wrong and it probably is, but it's just the only way. But that night that bit of ethical regrets and that spark of my past-self ended in a big mistake.
end of log 2
I spent a few weeks with the Insurgency but i realised the mistake I made and left them just a few weeks later and went back to Linz but not without stealing something from the transporter i was driving with to the Austrian border before I bolted.
I lived a life, worked for a security agency and hid my life behind a secret identity.
But it was too much. I had made to many mistakes lived to long with the bruises i had dealt myself.
So i went over the line: I drank the liquid, a prototype blood manipulator.
And now what had I become. Whenever any body-liquids left my body the crystallized and it all just made me hate myself more. I had become what i had fought wherever i was for years.
Something that shouldn't exist.
End log 3

And now I'm here on a roof somewhere in the middle of Linz. This is going to be my last log. Forever.
I will end this all tonight. I have betrayed everyone who gave me a chance, loved me, needed my and trusted me. Made myself something I hate and destroyed so many life’s in my way. First of all my family’s.
I'm writing a last letter to my son. And I hope he can understand if he hears these logs.
I hope my friends and colleagues at the foundation understand. I hope I can forgive myself when it's all over. I'm ending this log like I ended the letter to my son.
This one last time: I'm sorry that I let you down.

Maier killed himself by jumping of a building in downtown Linz. He was found in a pool of crystallized blood.
He maybe is a traitor and a man with a questionable life but it didn't need to be like this.
The foundation has agreed to let his wife back into her job and the letter was given to his son just like we let him hear the logs.