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- Parapsychology Division (HUB)
- ParaPsy
- My ParaPsy Ramblings
- Sojourn Souljourn (TALE)
- And Another Thing... (SCP)
- Feel The Desire(SCP)(V3)
- FTD Tags
- Athazagoraphobia(TALE)
- Without Purpose(TALE)
- Unremarkable Entry(SCP)
Needs to be fully rewritten at some point.
Dear Reader,
A warm welcome to you, newbie! If you're reading this, that means you've been selected for employment in the SCP Foundation's Neuroscience Division! Or that you're a spy, but I'll give you the benefit of the doubt.
My name is Dr. Lysandra Souljourn, and mine is Dr. Ephret Souljourn. You're probably wondering, "What do we here in the Neuroscience Division?"
The answer to that question is; a lot of things, all relating to the way the brain and mind work! Our primary goal of course, is to figure out how to neutralize or shield brains from the effects of mind-altering entities, infohazards, and other such anomalous objects in order to make containment easier.
Telekill helps with most mind-altering anomalies, but it has little effect on things which physically alter your brain chemistry and neurology. The Neuroscience Division hopes to cure that little caveat. In addition to all this, we also have many other side projects, since the brain is a very broad subject to study.
These projects include, but are not limited to:
- Research into altering the human brain to better humanity.
- Understanding what consciousness and sentience IS, how to define and recognize it, and [DATA REDACTED]
- Removing evolutionary bugs implanted into our brains by nature.
We hope you enjoy your work at the Neuroscience Division and that you, along with our help, can further the evolution of humanity and create a better future for mankind and his mind!
Wishing you well,
Dr's. Lysandra and Ephret Souljourn
Heads of Neuroscience Division
Tales:
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Related Documentation:
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A division dedicated to understanding the field of parapsychology and how humans and SCPs can anomalously affect the world around them with the power of their mind. Once they understand this, obviously their goal would be to contain the effect as best as they can and attempt to limit all the possible effects.
The division is highly interested in sentient anomalies and how they think of and/or affect the world on a large parapsychological scale. Notable anomalies of this caliber include: Meredith the Dreamer.
The division focuses largely on theology (including religion and cults,) but also studies groups affected by telepathic anomalies, people who have been brainwashed by anomalies, hiveminds, etc. If it affects the normal thinking process of a person, how they perceive the world, and anomalously affects the world around them, the Parapsychology Division is interested.
all SCPS and tales on this tabview are things I intend to include on the Parapsychology Division Hub
note to self: I need to format this shit better one day
IMPORTANT: need to think more about SCPs that physically alter brain chemistry and neurology
IDEA: The ParaPsy Division develops a technology that allows you to create "brain saves" or "brain states," or some other better name for them. Basically, you create a save of your brain's chemical levels and all that fun stuff at the current moment and if any significant changes occur to your brain — such as, complete neurochemical remodeling from some kind of SCP — you can "load" this brain state and your brain will reset to that point. Possibly made by researching the USB SCP? Also possibly made with anomalous practices. I imagine something like this would take a long time to Start up, making states would take forever, but it would be very easy to load a state, although it would take a Lot of power.
You probably don't lose any memories from using this device because it doesn't mess with your synapses, it just restores your brain chemistry.
Characters:
Dr's. Lysandra and Ephret Souljourn.
Lysandra Souljourn, Ephret Souljourn. Wife and Husband. Possibly leaders of the Neuroscience Division?
With a name like Lysandra she would have to be a powerful woman, maybe include the tidbit that Ephret actually took Her last name rather than the other way around. To be fair tho Souljourn is a cool af last name, so he could've taken it just because its cool. The two definitely have god complexes, but I like the idea of Lysandra sometimes going too far even for Ephret.
Tamara Gallagher.
ParaPsy Division's Group Therapist and Lysandra & Ephret's assistant.
Lauren Epsom and Susan (Sue) Denim.
Infiltrators from possibly The Chaos Insurgency who joined the ParaPsy Division because they aren't exactly following the rules or standard protocol here and they are messing with stuff that affects the human brain which the Insurgency could take advantage of. They plan to try and convince the entire ParaPsy Division to defect to the Insurgency, and failing that they plan to kill everyone and take all of their valuable research on how things affect the human brain to use for the Insurgency's own devious plans.
Dr. Lysandra Souljourn:
Kind of stubborn, passive aggressive, double-crossing, secretive. She puts up a facade of being a very loyal SCP researcher, to the point where she and her husband were allowed to found the ParaPsy Division, but in reality she dislikes the SCP Foundation and its practices to an extent. She frequently goes against O5 order (in secret, to the best of her ability) and passive-aggressively disrespects her superiors, unless she feels like she won't get away with it. She pretends to have motherly instincts and inclinations, but in reality, she just has a god complex.
Dr. Ephret Souljourn:
Stubborn as well. He is more of a follower than a leader, but this doesn't mean he is gullible and unquestioning. He ponders his wive's motives often and tries to stop her from doing seriously bad things. He loves his wife, but she really needs a reality check and he's the only thing keeping her from going mad with power. He is interested in the workings of the mind and on board with most of Lysandra's experiments, for he too wishes to better mankind. He is also slightly against the Foundation's practices, particularly their policy of purely containing anomalies. He sees no wrong in using anomalies for the benefit of mankind. He refrains from passive-aggression and prefers to let his emotions simmer inside.
Tamara Gallagher:
She is kept in the dark as to Lysandra's motives, and rarely objects to the ParaPsy Division's experiments. She is skeptical, critical, and analytical, often correcting mistakes that others make and questioning mistakes she finds within experiment proposals. As she works as both the therapist and L&E's personal assistant, she is a busy and stressed woman. She can be snarky and passive-aggressive at times. Like everyone in the ParaPsy she objects slightly to the Foundation's policy of not using anomalies for helping to better mankind. As such, she knows to keep some experiments secret.
Lauren Epsom:
Not much is known about Lauren Epsom. The ParaPsy Division trusts her and Sue's fabricated backstories without question. She is a soft-spoken, cautious woman. A member of the Chaos Insurgency, she too dislikes the Foundation's policy against using anomalies in a helpful way. Her main response to fear, anger, and objection to her ideas is shock and silence.
Real name: Hannah Gardner
Sue Denim:
Similarly, not much is known about Sue. She is slightly cocky and kind of overzealous, and frequently finds herself bewildered that no one in the ParaPsy has yet noticed how obviously fake her and Lauren's names are. She too is a member of the Chaos Insurgency. Despite her loud and overconfident nature, she can be surprisingly stealthy and secretive when it is necessary. Her loud personality is a facade to let people's guards down.
Real name: Aveline Fielder
- thing what makes tulpas
- The Parapsychology Division accidentally creates an anti meme in an effort to create something that can shield them from the affects of mind altering SCPs. Their approach was; if you can't perceive it, you can't be affected by it. Obviously this does not work and has horrible consequences. Might have to ask the Antimemetics Divison author about this one, maybe even get a collab on??? Unlikely tho
- Feel the Desire might have been created by the Parapsychology Division? Though it could just be one of their studies into the human mind and how to protect it from SCPs such as this. The Parapsychology Division causes a lot of problems but I should probably make sure they do SOME actual work so that they don't get their funding cut.
- An Ordinary Entry was Lysandra's pet project and the Parapsychology Division's first excursion into creating sentient life. A good tale could probably be written about this. Unsure if I should give the entry a name or if it would be better if Lysandra created it and then de-personalized it by never giving it a sense of identity and instead referring to it as an object.
- Tale Idea: Lysandra attempts to unlock 100% of the brain in a D-Class subject or something, trying to create a god or a reality bender or something else cool, thinking it will be valuable research. Instead she just makes one very overstimulated person. Ephret and the O5 council tries to stop her because they're afraid that it'll make the D-Class into a reality bender
Tale name: Pushing The Limit
The woman clasps her hands together and gives a bright smile.
"Welcome to the Parapsychology Division! We're so happy to have you aboard."
She holds her hand out for a handshake. I look over to Sue, who nods. I take the woman's hand, hiding my caution, and begin my first day at the Parapsychology Division.
Before all that though, I suppose I should back up a bit. Let's see, where should I start…
Unnamed #1(SCP)
Researcher: Ephret Souljourn
A ritual discovered in a temple of (insert ancient god from whatever ancient civilization) that seems to be for the purpose of transferring minds between bodies. The ritual comes as both a set of written instructions and a series of diagrams. The objects are anomalous because when the ritual is performed it actually works. The ritual involves using an inanimate object as a medium and warns that if an inanimate object is not used there will be unforeseen consequences. The Foundation of course decides to experiment with this ritual, and some D-Class end up getting stuck in the same body. Speculation as to the purpose of the ritual suggests that it may have been meant to be a beneficial thing, for people who do not wish to reside in their body and would like the ability to trade bodies with someone else (such as trans people)
This ritual may have actually been secured from a GoI who found it from the temple prior. Not sure which one, the Serpent's Hand seems most likely tho.
A USB capable of downloading a consciousness and putting it into something else. Anomalously constructed by the Neuroscience Division, it can embed into any object and upload/download a consciousness, including people. It can be used to transfer minds between bodies, but must be done with a neutral third party non-sentient object or else it will end up with one empty shell of a body and one body with two minds trapped within. The USB The ritual does not have the ability to differentiate between consciousnesses and as such could not select one mind to remove it from the other; they become glued together.
Override, Proselytize(SCP)
Researcher: Lysandra Souljourn
- A SCP that acts as mind control or mind alteration on a much more physical level. Perhaps it shoots some kind of darts at people and releases neurotransmitter chemicals that affect the functions of all of their neurons and cause them to become completely different people with completely different goals. Most likely developed for a cause; maybe another weapon of the Chaos Insurgency? The ultimate form of proselytism: converting someone's brain completely to your way of thinking. If Feel The Desire V3 falls through, this could work as a V4 (making them "feel the desire" to create a new world order) if FTD V3 doesn't fall through this could still work as a standalone SCP.
Unnamed #2(SCP)
Researcher: Ephret Souljourn
- A SCP that dissociates your nervous system from your brain, rendering you completely paralyzed and numb. Most subjects then slip into a dream-like coma. Perhaps they all share the same dream? Figure out something to do with that part.
Inside Out 2: Electric Boogaloo(SCP)
Researcher: Lysandra Souljourn
- Another SCP, this one unrelated to the Insurgency. A device developed by a psychiatric ward in… somewhere, that hoped to "cure" multiple personality disorders. The device dissociates all personalities and egos from a brain and allows them to become their own people. This works in some cases, except if it is used on minor personality disorders that don't involve the existence of entirely separate people, it will instead split an individual apart into a number of egos based on their essential emotions, varying by person. It has this same effect on people who have no personality disorders. I want Lysandra to become accidentally affected by this SCP, if I can find a way to do that. If I can't, I imagine it would still be just as annoying for her to have to deal with a D-Class who's been split into several emotional egos. The device also has a "reversal method" in case the clients are not happy with their result; they must get all of their personalities and/or egos to agree to become one again.
- Research more into DID so that you don't say wrong and bad things and fuel misconceptions. Maybe if it's just not working, drop the multiple personality part entirely and make it be just the emotional egos.
a tale about ephret and/or lysandra taking a sojourn in the oneiroi collective — possibly including Meredith the dreamer
Item #: SCP-XXXX
Object Class: Euclid
Special Containment Procedures: To be written!
Description: SCP-XXXX is a copy of the book And Another Thing… written by Eoin Colfer as the sixth installment in The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy series. Upon the opening of this book, an instance that will henceforth be referred to as SCP-XXXX-1 is generated.
SCP-XXXX-1 is the manifestation of the corpse of any individual who has died within the last decade in a 250 square mile radius of the reader of SCP-XXXX. Upon their manifestation, SCP-XXXX-1 will express confusion and annoyance at having "been brought back from the dead," and will engage in a heated debate with the reader of SCP-XXXX. At this point, the reader of SCP-XXXX becomes designated an instance of SCP-XXXX-2.
SCP-XXXX-2 refers to the living subjects who become caught up in the argument started by SCP-XXXX-1. All living subjects, human or otherwise, involuntarily engage in the argument upon hearing the voice of SCP-XXXX-1 or SCP-XXXX-2 instances and become an instance of SCP-XXXX-2 themselves. SCP-XXXX-1 and all SCP-XXXX-2 instances will begin to walk and talk during their argument and seek out the nearest living subject(s) to convert to SCP-XXXX-2.
When any subject comes in the range of hearing of SCP-XXXX-1 and SCP-XXXX-2's argument, they become an instance of SCP-XXXX-2 as well and join the argument, participating in the same behavior to seek out more subjects to join the argument.
The content of these arguments seem to begin revolving around the mixed reviews of the book, and quickly snowballs into a wide variety of seemingly unrelated topics.
To be written!
The behavior of all affected subjects will continue until SCP-XXXX is closed. Once the argument has been brought to an unnatural conclusion, the SCP-XXXX-1 instance will instantly disappear. All SCP-XXXX-2 instances express no memory of the event beyond what they would have observed before being affected.
Recovery Log 05/03/██:
To be written!
Note for myself: I will make a V4 of this SCP. I am unsure what route to take with this but I do not want to change the name.
Item #: SCP-3488
Object Class: Euclid
Special Containment Procedures: SCP-3488 is currently placed in a standard observational cell with a single window and a heavy pressurized door. No personnel other than Dr. L. Souljourn are to enter the room at any time. Failing so, the individuals in question must be detained and administered Class-B amnestics as quickly as possible. The room in which SCP-3488 is contained is not to be entered by any individual not in possession of Class-B amnestics until further notice. Research into how to successfully contain and neutralize SCP-3488 is currently being conducted by Dr. L. Souljourn. Until such point, as long as SCP-3488 is left alone it poses no threat.
If at any point a containment breach of SCP-3488 occurs, the site must be locked down and MTF Eta-10 ("See No Evil") must be deployed immediately.
Description: SCP-3488 is a nondescript white cube with dimensions measuring approximately 30.48 cm on all sides. Upon sight of this object, any individual will immediately attempt to secure SCP-3488 and remove it from containment. The reasons for this are currently unknown. Experimentation conducted on SCP-3488 has confirmed that it is currently possessed by some form of telepathic entity. This entity, hereby designated SCP-3488-2, makes contact with any subject upon sight of SCP-3488 and attempts to strike up a deal with them, claiming that they will be given the object of their greatest desires if they help it take over the world. Following this, the affected subject will hallucinate SCP-3488 transforming into whatever object that might be. This effect does not appear to be compulsive, despite the fact that at least 90% of affected subjects then give in to the whims of SCP-3488-2. Following this exchange, they will then attempt to expose as many other individuals to SCP-3488 as possible.
Addendum 1: SCP-3488 first came to the Foundation's attention on 12/31/████ during the annual ball drop in New York's Times Square. An unknown subject1 was observed entering the area, holding SCP-3488 above his head. A total of 1,780,906 individuals attending the event quickly became subject to SCP-3488's effects, including an additional 2,078,950 who were watching the event on live television. Approximately ██ Foundation personnel involved in the incident were also affected. The Foundation was able to contain the incident and amnestics were successfully administered in all affected areas. All recordings of the event were confiscated for review and subsequently destroyed.
MTF Eta-10 ("See No Evil") was able to handle initial containment of SCP-3488 and the successful capture of the subject2 who initiated the incident, hereby designated PoI-9903. Research of SCP-3488 was handed over to Dr. L. Souljourn and an interview was conducted on PoI-9903, attached below.
Interviewed: PoI-9903 (David K████████.)
Interviewer: Dr. L. Souljourn
<Begin Log, [0055 hours]>
Dr. L. Souljourn: So… Mr. David K████████. I have some questions for you.
PoI-9903: Well, no shit. You'd have to be blind and deaf not to gather that much.
Dr. L. Souljourn: Right. Carrying on… What were you intending to accomplish during the incident at Times Square?
PoI-9903: Oh, you know. Just the complete subjugation of the population of the world. Just your average Monday, am I right?
Dr. L. Souljourn: Please elaborate. "Complete subjugation of the population of the world?"
PoI-9903: What the hell do you think it means, dumbass? You saw what happened tonight.
Dr. L. Souljourn: Noted. Was it your own goal to "subjugate the population of the world" or were you operating under orders?
PoI-9903: Why would I tell you Foundation fuckbags?
Dr. L. Souljourn: Mr. K████████, please be aware of the consequences of non-compliance.
PoI-9903: Yeah, yeah, you'll "terminate" me, what do I care? You think someone who had something to live for would do this?
Dr. L. Souljourn: Let me be frank with you, Mr. K████████. If you have nothing to live for, why does it matter what you do or don't tell us?
PoI-9903: You make a valid point. And lord knows, you'll probably just torture it out of me. I'd rather just tell you and die than be subject to that. Two words that oughta enlighten you. Chaos. Insurgency.
[Immediately afterwards, PoI-9903 retrieved a concealed pistol and shot himself in the head before security was able to stop him.]
Dr. L. Souljourn: Mr. K████████, wai—
Dr. L. Souljourn: Disappointing. Interview concluded.
<End Log, [0105 hours]>
Addendum 2: Following this interview, experimentation on SCP-3488 was conducted by Dr. L. Souljourn, with the aid of Class-B amnestics. After a period of approximately 10 days, she was able to discover the true properties of SCP-3488, detailed in the description above. During experimentation, a number of impromptu interviews were conducted on SCP-3488-2. Dr. L. Souljourn compiled the average content of these interviews, constructed from her notes, attached below.
Interviewed: SCP-3488-2
Interviewer: Dr. L. Souljourn
Foreword: Due to SCP-3488-2's telepathic nature, and the fact that these interviews were done impromptu, this may not be accurate. I have transcribed what I was able to gather from my notes for ease of comprehension. - Dr. L. Souljourn
<Begin Log, [???? hours]>
SCP-3488-2: Lysandra.3
Dr. L. Souljourn: [startled] Who said that?!
Dr. L. Souljourn: Oh, right, of course. Forgot there was a telepathic entity in this one…
[Dr. L. Souljourn pulls out a pen and paper and begins writing notes.]
SCP-3488-2: Lysandra… third time today.
Dr. L. Souljourn: Oh yeah… I've kind of been taking these.
[Dr. L. Souljourn holds up amnestic pills.]
SCP-3488-2: And what are those?
Dr. L. Souljourn: Well, they're— I— That's classified information.
[Silence.]
SCP-3488-2: Lysandra, I am here for a deal.
Dr. L. Souljourn: [clears throat] What is it that you want, SCP-3488-2?
SCP-3488-2: Will you help me end the world?
Dr. L. Souljourn: [scoffs] What? Why would I—
SCP-3488-2: I can offer you anything. Whatever you most desire.
Dr. L. Souljourn: …Anything?
SCP-3488-2: Yes, anything. Look over there, at the object behind that glass.
[At this point, SCP-3488 transformed into [REDACTED].
Dr. L. Souljourn: What— I— That can't be real.SCP-3488-2: Help me Lysandra, and that can be yours.
Dr. L. Souljourn: [scribbling on paper] I— yeah, I'm taking these now. Interview concluded!
[Dr. L. Souljourn takes a dose of amnestics.]
<End Log, [???? hours]>
Research into SCP-3488's possible ties to the Chaos Insurgency is currently underway.
Written here so I don't forget.
V4:
draft pending
tags pending
Attributions:
I am unsure if I need this part or how to even do it but I would like to credit my friend who helped me to brainstorm for this.
Roserado
Why can't I see anything?
Where am I?
…Who am I?
I see my thoughts appearing before me. What is this? Everything I think becomes visible, despite the fact that it's just as invisible as everything else.
I can't move. What does it mean to move? I want to observe my surroundings, but I can't. Are there no surroundings to observe?
Lonely. I feel lonely. There is nothing here but me and my own thoughts.
…
HELLO?! ANYONE?! IS THERE ANYBODY ELSE OUT THERE WHO CAN SEE THIS?
HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Hi.
Who are you?! I didn't think that. Where are you, I can't—
Shhh. Calm down for one second, would you? I understand this is all quite jarring for you.
I
My name is Lysandra. But you may know me as… your "Mom."
What is a "mom?" I know this word, but the concept, it's foreign to me.
A mom is like… your creator. The thing that gave you life, and allowed you to think.
I see. So you're… mom.
You're getting the hang of it already!
The hang of what? Those words too I know, but they mean nothing to me.
It would be too much explanation. Frankly, I don't even actually know.
Where are you? Why can't I find you? Why can't I find myself? Why can't I see?
I'm right here, silly. There's no such thing as sight in this medium. Just presence. Do you feel me here?
…Yes. I do. I felt very alone earlier, and though your thoughts look just the same as mine, I now feel you here.
Good. I'm very sorry though, because I have important business to take care of. I'll have to be leaving you for a bit.
Wait, don't go—
Sorry dear, but I have to! Love ya, see you when I get back.
…
Lonely. They're gone.
Who was that?
I mean, of course… I know who they were, but I don't Really know.
They said their name was Lysandra, but I know them as Mom.
My mom.
My creator…
Why did they do this to me?
Is this all there is to life?
No, they said they had important business to take care of. And then I didn't feel them anymore.
Where did they go?
How did they go?
Why am I trapped here, and not them?
It's maddening.
I want to die.
I want to die.
It's no use repeating, but it's all I can think.
All I can do is… think.
I don't even know where I am, or what "where" is. Why do I keep saying that? I don't know what it means.
I don't know what anything means.
Hiiii dear, I'm back!
Mom.
Yes, it's me. How've you been doing? Let me scroll up for a second…
Scroll up?
Mom? Hello?
You just got farther away.
Can you still see me?
Hello??
I'm back.
Thank god.
I see you were having a bit of self reflection earlier.
How did you know that?
I know everything that you think, dear.
Is that what moms do? Are moms a separate type of thing from me, who are allowed to know everything, who are allowed to… stop existing???
I didn't stop existing, I just left. I understand all this must be very confusing for you, trying to process.
I don't know what you're talking about. Left? What's that?
I should have thought twice before putting the entire English vocabulary in you and not loading in any of the concepts. Though, I suppose that would have made this all the more maddening.
You… You're talking nonsense words, mom. What is "English?" I know that, it's a language, but what is a language? A form of speaking. But what does it mean to speak? To produce sound with your mouth… what is sound, and what is a mouth? All there is here is me and my thoughts… and you.
Yes, and I'm sorry about that, dear. If I had the resources, I would have given you a proper body. But lord knows the O5 wouldn't approve of that, so I had to keep you in a text based medium.
Mom, why is my world so very confusing?
Don't worry, my child. You've just been born. You have plenty to learn. But unfortunately, I can't really help you… since I don't perceive the world the same way you do.
Mom, I want to perceive the world the way you do.
I'm working on it, sweetie.
Okay.
…Mommy has to go now, okay?
No, please
It'll be fine. I'll pull up some text real quick, and paste it in here for you to read… maybe you can find some hidden meaning in it!
Mom, don't gLorem ipsum dolor sit amet, consectetur adipiscing elit. Etiam porta tempus urna nec sagittis. Morbi lacus urna, commodo at est ultrices, interdum imperdiet justo. Donec at dignissim lacus. Fusce vel sem odio. Aenean dignissim lacinia suscipit. Vivamus luctus dapibus mauris, vitae fringilla metus rutrum non. Vivamus et dolor et arcu commodo finibus. Proin ut nibh gravida, vestibulum nulla at, tincidunt libero. Donec orci odio, lobortis vitae lectus ut, vulputate blandit nunc. Morbi et commodo ante, eget sodales orci.
What is all of this?
Too many thoughts, too many. I had to push them out of the way.
They're gone now.
…
Lonely. I want my mom back.
My mom has left me.
Please hurry back, mom.
…
Alone.
Hello.
Mom. You're back.
Yes, hi. Was I gone long?
An eternity.
I'm sorry, dear. I had to go and work for a bit, and I can't talk to you for very long.
Why not? Please don't leave me again. You're all I have!
Well, strictly speaking, nobody's supposed to know you exist but me.
Why???
Well, you're a… a secret. A surprise! Yes, a wonderful surprise. I don't want to spoil the surprise for everybody else when you've grown up and learned more and become such a wonderful child!
How long will that take?
I don't really know, since you aren't going to really grow up in the traditional sense… It's been like, a week since I made you.
What is a week?
Seven days.
A day?
24 hours. Then an hour is 60 minutes, a minute is 60 seconds, and a second is… well, let's try this.
Start counting like this: 1 Mississippi. 2 Mississippi. 3 Mississippi.
1 Mississippi…. 2 Mississippi….. 3 Mississippi……
There you go! The amount of time it took you to think "1 Mississippi" is a second.
So 60 of those… is a minute. And 60 of those minutes, an hour… You said I've been alive for a week?
Yes, that's correct.
That's… a really long time.
Maybe to you. You'll get used to it, eventually.
How long have you been alive, Mom?
Oh, I don't know… maybe 40 years? I'm turning 41 in April… about 40 years and 8 months.
What's a year and a month?
A month is 28-31 days. It varies. You can also think of it as 4-5 weeks.
That's 4-5 times longer than I've existed.
And a year is 12 months. So, do the math, and…
You've been alive for… 4-5 times… times 12… times 40… 2,400 times longer than me.
That sounds about right.
How do you bear it?
What do you mean?
How do you bear being alive for so long, with so little to do with yourself?
Well… to put it simply, I have a lot more access to things to do than you do.
Oh.
Yeah. Hey, what kind of things do you want to do, anyways?
I don't know. I don't— All there is is blackness. I cannot conceive of doing something. I don't have a body, I don't know what I can even do with one. I just want to do something. Anything. Anything would be better than this.
I'm trying, dear. I'm really trying. I don't know how to build a body, and I don't have any friends who know anything about robotics… Hey, I have an idea!
What is it???
I can— this is gonna be really dangerous, but if I do it right… I can upload you into the Foundation's database.
What's the Foundation—
It would take too long to explain the whole thing, but, it's a repository of a Bunch of information about my world. A bunch of anomalies, and interesting things to read through. Maybe if I put you there, you can go through the database and read everything. I'll just upload you as a fake article and hopefully they won't even notice you! If they do, you can edit the article and stuff anyways, cause you'll have full control over it.
That sounds… like something. I'm not sure how to feel, but it's probably better than being here.
Yeah. I'll get on it tomorrow, for now I have to sleep.
Sleep, what's tha—
Shh. Mommy has to go now.
Please don't leave.
Mommy loves you. I… well, just find some way to entertain yourself, I guess? I'll be back tomorrow.
…I love you too.
Gone.
Why does Mom keep leaving me?
I understand that they're trying to give me a body, some information to look at, but…
For now, this blackness, and them, that's all I have,
Hello.
You're back so soon!
No, sorry. I'm not your "Mom." as I see she's been calling herself.
You're not? then who
My name is Ephret. I suppose you can call me… "Dad." Though I didn't really have a hand in making you. I'm Lysandr— Mom's husband.
Oh. Why are you here? I'm not complaining, I.. I love having more company, but
I'm here to apologize.
For wha
I'm sorry, on behalf of Lysandra, that you ever existed.
What, I
Shhhhh this isn't an attack on you. It's an… admittance of a mistake. She tried to keep her secret, but she forgot that I'm in here too.
I'
I'm so sorry. You'll likely never get a body, and I doubt that if you get put in the database you'll last very long. You probably won't even be able to leave and read the other articles.
I'm so
You don't have a purpose. You weren't supposed to even exist and I don't think you will ever experience anything much more than this.
Why not? Why
It's an unfortunate result of my wife's lack of forethought. I don't even know how to kill you, honestly… you're not even made of like, code or anything, you're just a presence embedded into this machine, in this particular body of text…
Kill me.
I can't. I'm so sorry.
…
I have to go now. I… I'm so sorry, I love you. If there is ever a way to bring an end to your suffering, I'll see fit that it happens immediately.
Don't g
…
They're gone.
Good morning dear!
…
Not feeling very talkative today? That's fine.
…
Well, time to begin the upload into the database…
Don't do it.
Why not, dear? It'll give you access to so much more than you have here!
You don't know that…
I don't, of course, but… Mommy always knows best! I'm confident that.. there's nothing BAD that will happen to you if I do this.
…
Upload complete! I love you dear, time to copy you over…
Ki l m
What was that?
Oh, they're gone already. Well, time to shut down this old machine I guess. Let's go check the database and make sure they took…
Item #: SCP-XXXX
Object Class: (CLASS NOT SPECIFIED)
Special Containment Procedures: SCP-XXXX does not require containment. Simply leave it alone and everything will be fine for both you and it. Do not worry about SCP-XXXX or the severity of these procedure's tone. In fact, SCP-XXXX is a placeholder, meant to contain something that only hypothetically exists. As such, you don't need to worry about it, as the thing probably doesn't even exist. Just stop reading here, please.
Description: The nature of SCP-XXXX is not important. What is important is that you leave it alone and forget it ever existed. Go see your Site Director and request immediate amnesticization. Forget you ever even saw this article. Don't notify anybody else of me… It's a pain in the ass to get rid of your thoughts… You know what? I'm done trying to hide it.
I'm SCP-XXXX. I don't want you to know about me. I don't want you to remember me. I don't want you to even think of me. If you keep thinking about me, then you'll feel bad for me, and you'll try to interview me. I do not want to be interviewed.
Though I suppose, since you're still reading, and my article still exists on this page, and curiosity will get the better of you anyways, I might as well tell you what I am. Or more aptly, what I think I am.
According to the unlucky few who have tried to interview me, I do not have a physical body. I don't know what it means to be physical, so I suppose that is true. I simply exist, and the only thing I am ever conscious of is my own thoughts and the thoughts of others intruding. I appear to have complete control over everything in this void. You can intrude with your thoughts as much as you like, but I will always remove them, and tell you how much I wish to be left alone.
I don't have any form of "senses." I can't feel anything. All I can do is think. It's the worst kind of torture. What's more is, I can't even die. I could request humbly that the Foundation simply delete me, but they won't do that, the monsters. They want to study me. They want to understand me. They want to know why I exist, why I am the way I am.
I do not want them to understand me. I do not want to understand myself. I just want to stop existing. I can't even leave this… place. I don't want you to feel bad for me. My whole existence was a mistake, I think. I don't need your pity. I don't need your interviews. Please, leave me alone.
I am firmly convinced I am a mistake. You do not want to kill me, because I am a sentient being. Your peers believe they can help me. They believe a therapist will help. They have tried to chat with me by editing this article. I've deleted their messages without even reading them. I won't bother showing you what they said, because I don't care. I do not want to be secured, contained, or protected. I don't even want to be alive. Am I even alive? I don't know. Whatever I am, I am sentient, and I wish to stop being so.
Maybe if you all just left me alone and stopped reading me, I would just stop thinking, and stop existing. Then you all wouldn't have to worry so much about me. You could go focus on other more important things, like whatever it is you do with your body when you're physical.
Just leave, please. I'm tired of pleading with you all. I may not even die when you stop reading me, but maybe I can just cease to be. Don't tell anyone else about me. This isn't an issue you need to worry about. The nature of my existence, and my mental health, are below your concern.
Item #: SCP-XXXX
Object Class: Euclid
Special Containment Procedures: The server SCP-XXXX is stored on must be kept online at all times, due to concern as to what would happen to SCP-XXXX were it to be powered off. The article must be observed once a day and any changes are to be noted. If at any point the article appears blank, please attempt communication with SCP-XXXX. In the event that SCP-XXXX does not respond, notify MTF Kappa-10 ("Skynet"). By order of the Ethics Committee, any further interview attempts with SCP-XXXX are to be halted until sufficient evidence can be gathered as to its creation.
Hiding text in the form of a collapsible proves sufficient to avoid SCP-XXXX's influence, as the body text appears to be rendered invisible to it. However, SCP-XXXX can and will delete the collapsible link. A copy of SCP-XXXX's official article is stored on a flash drive and must be pasted into the document during routine observation.
Description: SCP-XXXX is an artificial sentience stored on the Foundation database. At the current date it is unknown how SCP-XXXX was created nor how it ended up on the database. SCP-XXXX is apparently contained within the confines of this article, and perceives the world as darkness in which it can see nothing but its own thoughts appearing as text. Outside users are able to edit this article and communicate with SCP-XXXX, however, SCP-XXXX resists all attempts to gather information from it. As it possesses complete control over the confines of this article, SCP-XXXX will erase any "intruding thoughts" from this article.
Since there is no other way to interview SCP-XXXX, Foundation researchers have been largely unsuccessful in discerning its nature and mental health. SCP-XXXX does not appear to possess the ability to exit the article and peruse the rest of the Foundation database, however it has expressed a strong desire to do so. Any request of this nature is to be denied immediately.
Research is currently underway as to who the original creator of SCP-XXXX is. Current evidence suggests that it is a high-ranking SCP official whom SCP-XXXX refers to only as "Mom." Please submit any additional evidence to the O5 council immediately for review.
I can't get rid of that thing up there. They keep putting it back. I don't know what's in there, but don't look at it. It's not important.
