December 24, 2008: Finally. It is the first time in years that I have seen my wife again. Now granted she does look quite different than she did a year ago. She is a wisp? Yes I believe that is what you would call this form. Lili's body died, but thanks to me her soul will live on!" I've done it! I've brought her back!
December 25, 2008: I had a great time with Lily last night, and I can tell she had a lot of fun as well. That human form I gave her was wonderful, though sadly she can only sustain it for so long. Still, being able to touch my wife after being separated for so long was a blessing from God himself. This is a true Christmas Miracle.
December 30, 2008: Today I took Lili out to see a new movie. She loved it. I also got a lot of interesting glances from the people around me, though I expected this. After all who wouldn't be surprised to see a living, breathing orb of light?
January 5, 2008: Is it just me or has Lili gotten so much better in bed? It seems she gets better every time I get home from work! Regardless of the reason, I'm not complaining.
January 10, 2008:** Lili has been acting strange as of late. She claims she can't remember the first time we met! Oh well. Though unfortunate, I guess amnesia may be an inevitable symptom of her resurrection.
January 20, 2008: Today we went to an amusement park. After we rode on one of the roller coasters however, she told me she that it wasn't very fun for her. Odd, she was a huge fan of roller coasters back when I first met her. I wonder what changed. I put her in a clear bag that I attached to a pendant. Maybe she didn't like that? Regardless, she didn't complain about any of the other rides we rode.
February 4, 2008: Today was very promising. I told her about some of our first memories together, and she said she could vaguely recall them. I must have been more worried than I should have been.
February 14, 2008: Ah. Valentines day. Today was a great day. There isn't much else I have to say about it. I got Lili some very nice flowers and we made out. I haven't been this happy in so long.
March 17, 2008: There's only one thing I have to say. Why Lili, why? I found out today that she has been cheating on me almost ever since her reincarnation. I don't know what to do. I'm ashamed. Was this my fault? Was I not good enough for her? I asked her why she did this and her response was that it was only to "practice for me." Such utter bullshit.
March 18, 2008: I gave Lili the silent treatment all day. She seemed to be confused as to why I wasn't talking to her. I told her that she knew what she did, but she only seemed to get more confused.
April 4, 2008: I finally decided to start talking to Lili again, though I refused to make any contact with her. She seemed unreasonably hurt by this, but whatever. Its her fault for being unfaithful anyways.
April 10, 2008: We seem to be on better terms now, but Lili is starting to behave differently. She has a different way of speaking than she used to, she has different habits, and even has different opinions on subjects than she used to. But when I questioned her about this she said she's always been that way. Did I not notice this before?
May 2, 2008: Something has been nagging at me for awhile. It has to do with Lili's strange behavior. I'm going to ask her about it.
May 3, 2008: The wisp is not Lili. It just confirmed by worst fears today. It said it didn't remember anything before the moment it was first created. I never revived Lili. I created something, no someone else.
May 4, 2008: What have I done? All of this time, I can't believe I didn't realize it. Have I gone insane? The orb didn't cheat on me, as it wasn't my wife. Lili is gone. The orb didn't know any better. I feel so alone. Alone again. Just as I felt after I lost her. Except this time its worse.
May 7, 2008: I can't take this anymore. I know what must be done, and the wisp, no, Lili, must do it. She may not be the Lili I knew, but she is a Lili, a Lili that deserves to live her own life. She must be the one to rid herself of me. Its the only way I can fix my mistake. Well, Lili, I guess I will finally get to see you now, finally, and truly. And to anyone who is reading this diary, I simply say, goodbye.