Addendum D: Excerpts from the Journal of Foundation Researcher Sebastian Pascal, also known as SCP-5217-3-SP
April 30, 1999, 10:45 PM
The other researchers asked me to keep a journal of my experiences during this test, so I guess I should start with how I got into this to begin with.
A few days after the incident at █████████, a memo came out straight from the O5s requesting a clinically-depressed Foundation researcher with at least Level 4 clearance travel to Site-01 to meet with the Council. I was one of about 25 or so who applied, and when we all got there the Council explained to us what they wanted from us. Once they explained what we’d be doing, all 24 of the other researchers dropped out. They had me sign an informed consent document and before I knew it O5-█ and I were in a Foundation aircraft bound for a small airstrip south of Estes Park. She explained to me that I she would be personally overseeing the experiment and giving the research team on the ground their marching orders. It wasn’t long before we landed and I was checked in to SCP-5217.
The room is nice and comfortable, and it has a beautiful view of the Rocky Mountains out the window. If I didn’t know what else it had I would have had no inclination of anything anomalous about it whatsoever. It’s always these SCPs that end up being the most dangerous. Yay. It’s around about 11 PM, and the researchers in my earpiece are telling me to go to bed, so I should probably do that. I’m not looking forward to 5217-1, but I have to bite that bullet eventually
May 1, 1999, 9:15 AM
That wasn’t at all what I was expecting.
The dream was more clear than any other dream I’ve ever had. It was almost as if I’d been transported to some other dimension in my sleep. I was completely lucid the entire time. I was expecting to see that thing in the red mask in some capacity, and I knew what the reports had said ██████ and ███████ saw, but I still held onto hope that maybe I wasn’t actually depressed and maybe I would just have the “normal” dream.
I was sorely disappointed.
I found myself in what seemed to be a copy of the hotel bar sitting across a table from 2264-3. It chuckled to itself once it realized I was lucid.
“Relax, Sebastian, I’m not gonna hurt you,” it said coarsely, “I can’t do anything to hurt people when they’re in the dream. What is it you call it? 5217-1? Seems a bit too clinical to me, but whatever. I’d rather think of it as my playroom.’”
I tried to ask how it knew my name, but it cut me off mid-sentence. “I know everything about you, Sebastian. This is a dream, remember? Dreams all happen inside your head. Since this dream’s inside your head, I’m inside your head. Since I’m inside your head, I can know whatever I want about you.”
“So,” I said, putting two and two together, “it was you that caus-”
“Of course it was me you stupid sack of meat,” it snarled as it cut me off again. “Those jizz wizards were talking a good game even before they met me, but they wouldn’t have had the balls to go through with it if I hadn’t done it for them. You don’t seem to have any malicious intentions, though. That’s a damn shame. There’s so much potential in you for destruction and chaos! Just look at all the secrets you know!. You could kill a billion people if you just decided to open a few little blast doors. With me in charge, you just might be able to pull it off.”
“Wait,” I asked, “what do you mean, ‘with me in charge?’”
It just laughed and said, “See ya in nine months, asshole!”
That’s when I woke up.
NOTE: The following entry is believed to have been written by SCP-5217-2 while Researcher Pascal was engaging in leisure activities in Estes Park to enjoy his “last day of freedom.” The pages containing this entry were removed from Researcher Pascal’s journal before he could read it and attempt to carry out its request.
Dearest Sebastian,
I sincerely apologize for my inability to relay this message to you directly through an apparition; however, the dynamics of my situation do not allow for me to do so. As I am certain you will be aware upon reading this note, I am the “entity” you and your Foundation know as SCP-5217-2. I am also certain that you will wonder how I have come to awareness of my status, considering none of your people have ever come to speak with me. It is partly for that reason that I feel the need to reach out to you and your colleagues in this manner.
This room is a special place, one with a unique closeness to a world beyond yours - a world between worlds which your people already seem to have discovered and explored. The people who built this place meant for the door to this room to act as a gateway between the worlds similar to the one you found in the Tower of London. They failed, but not completely. In doing so, they gave a terrible, cruel being who lives there a conduit through which he can access human minds to torment them in their sleep and cause them anguish after they have left.
In choosing this room as my haunt I have inadvertently fused myself with the spirit of the room which allows the masked figure to enter your world through the human mind. It is because of this that I know what you saw last night. It is because of this that I know what he knows. It is because of this that I reach out to you today to attempt to warn you and your Foundation of what is to come.
Sebastian, I do apologize, but there is only one way to prevent your use as an instrument of chaos, pain, and destruction. You must die before he takes control. Find a painless way to kill yourself, or ask your people to “terminate” you. For the sake of your Foundation, its collection of oddities, and the world at large, you must die.
I am sorry.
Best Wishes,
[REDACTED]
Normal entries resume.
May 1, 1999, 8:02 PM
I just got back in from town to pack my things so the research team can get me to Site-17 to begin my containment and observation. There isn’t really anything relevant to the experiment for me to write about my day in town, but something of note did happen upon my return.
When I got to the door of 5217 I realized I’d locked my key in the room. I relayed this information to the researchers, who instructed me to attempt to open the door anyway. I did so, and despite all indications that the door was locked, it opened easily. Having seen this, I was told to lock the door again and they sent someone to try the door. It wouldn’t budge for him. It seems to me like this room is actively trying to attract guests like me to enter it and stay the night. That can’t be good news.
May 9, 1999, 11:38 AM
I’ve been in containment for a week now. So far it hasn’t been that bad. It’s strange to be the one studied and contained rather than the one doing the studying and containment. I’ve tried to be as helpful as I can, but there’s only so much anyone can do considering nothing’s supposed to happen until February 1.
For now I’ll just sit here and enjoy what I’m choosing to think of as a sort of extended vacation. I’ve got a TV, a comfortable bed, a nice couch, and as much food and drink as I want. For at least the first several months they tell me I’m allowed to have visitors and the freedom to leave my containment chamber (under guard, of course) on occasion. Honestly, I feel sorry for whatever researcher gets to read this whole thing. I expect most of it after my time in Estes Park will be an absolute snore.
Though the following months passed by without notable incident, several additional entries in the interval between May 9, 1999, and February 1, 2000, provide a unique perspective of the psychological affects containment may have on some humanoid items.
June 29, 1999, 9:07 AM
In a few days I'll have been contained for two months. Sometimes it feels like I've been in here for much, much longer.
I went into this thinking I'd have plenty of time to myself to think and attempt to improve my mental state. So far I'm right about the first part of that. I have nothing but time to think. The problem is all the thinking has only made things worse. I was imagining (naively, in retrospect) that I'd be able to pull myself up and out of this pit I've been stuck in for such a long time. For the first few weeks I thought that was what was happening. I managed to convince myself of that.
That was when the loneliness set in.
Sure, I get some human contact when they come in to deliver my meals and I have a TV in here that gets every channel imaginable, but it's not the same. I don't get to have any meaningful conversation about anything other than status reports on whether or not I'm noticing a change in my psyche or behavior. Even those have largely lost their meaning to me because it's always the same questions and same answers over and over again. I'm trying to be as helpful as I can, but I really can't do much of anything to help when nothing's happening to me.
February 1 can't come fast enough.
July 4, 1999, 9:48 PM
Normally at this time today I'd go out and watch the Site-17 fireworks display. It's always been a great morale boost for us, especially the ones who have the graveyard shift. Tonight's different for me though. Hearing the soft booms of the rockets exploding far above my head only reminds me of what I'm missing being stuck in here. Would it have been too much to ask for a skylight, or even just a big TV screen embedded in the ceiling playing a live feed of the sky 24/7?
I've noticed I've been trying to sleep as long as possible. I don't think this has anything to do with anything anomalous, though. It's just me not wanting to be alone with my thoughts anymore.
September 15, 1999, 10:19 AM
Why did I ever sign up for this? Who would ever want to sign up for this? It's absolute hell. My depression gets worse by the day and the loneliness is suffocating. What do I have to do to have some sort of meaningful human interaction? I thought my problems were bad enough before I signed up for this test, but I don't know what I'll do with myself once I'm out. I hope I'll get amnesticized. I don't want to have to remember this.
November 25, 1999, 6:30 PM
Normally I'd be going over to Mom and Dad's for Thanksgiving dinner right about now. This is the first time in my life I've missed it. The kitchen staff sent in a nice big plate of turkey, mashed potatoes, stuffing, and pumpkin pie, and it tasted fantastic, but it's not the same. It could never have hoped to be the same.
Every year since I can remember we'd start dinner by going around and saying a few things we're thankful for. This year is the first I don't feel like I'd be able to answer honestly. What's there for me to be thankful for? The pristine whiteness of the walls of this containment chamber cell?
Even if I don't feel like there's much for me to be thankful for, Thanksgiving has always been a time of reflection and reminiscing for me. This one has been no exception, unfortunately.
I've done a lot of thinking about why I signed up for this to begin with. I wanted a break. I needed a break. In my time at the Foundation I've only ever been assigned to work on child SCPs, because some test I took said I had a strong enough will to do it and it wouldn't break me. As much as I didn't want to admit it to myself, it broke me. Who wouldn't be broken by spending enough time with 1192, 706, 116, and 191? Right before the O5s sent out the call for test subjects I went to a psychologist and got my diagnosis: depression. The doctor suggested I try and take some time off, and when this opportunity dropped I figured it'd be a great chance to get away from those kids and relax a bit. Now all I think about is that this must be what their lives are like. I'm such a terrible human being.
The following entry was written on the morning of February 1, 2000. It is believed to have been written while Researcher Pascal was in the control of the entity from SCP-5217-1.
The Day It’s Gonna Happen, Whatever Fucking Year It Is, Too Damn Early in the Morning
I don’t usually make my instruments express themselves in any way while I’m using them for my own entertainment, but today’s different. I’ve got a pretty unique chance here to cause some pure, genuine, unadulterated, grade-A chaos and devastation. So I gotta be more careful than I usually feel like I need to be. This guy usually gets up around this time in the morning to write down some stupid bullshit in this journal. If he didn’t the guards and whoever the hell is on the other side of those cameras would get suspicious. I’m just gonna keep bullshitting this until it feels like it’s been long enough that they don’t see anything wrong. They know I’m gonna try and pull something today, so if I’m gonna make this work I’ll have to convince them I’m not running the show yet. Breakfast should be here any minute, so I’ll stop writing now and get ready for it.
This is gonna be so much fun.